I joined Shri Ambika Yoga Kutir because of my husband. Even though I am a doctor, I could not manage my own health. A famous doctor in Mumbai had told me that you might have uterine cancer, and it is required to be removed. I do not rely entirely on allopathic cures. I did not see myself getting better because of any medicines. Therefore, I entered the Kutir’s special batch. At that time, it was diagnosed as anaemia with endocrinal imbalance, with precancerous condition of the uterus. I was constantly bleeding for 60 days. My Haemoglobin would not rise above 7-8. I had all the complications of Anaemia. In the first three months, I was able to practice upto Kapalabhati only. Tai asked me to practise amarakruti (type of breathing exercise) and surprisingly my bleeding stopped. I was shocked. What must have happened within my body that one exercise could stop this continuous bleeding? What hormone had been produced? My curiosity about this science increased. What changes does it produce in the body? How are illnesses cured? I realised that I am on the right path. My interest increased. I was told to do asanas (physical exercise) and offer service. Later, I joined the pranayama course. At CBD Belapur, I did danda dhouti (a cleansing process) and also at home. As result of this, I observed that the impurities in the form of a spoonful of coffee-brown coloured liquid was ejected through vomit. It was then that I realised that I was completely healthy. I started studying Pranayama. I practised each pranayama with understanding and started experiencing exactly what happens when we withhold the breath or exhale through Chandra nadi. I experimented with food and realised that eating early and light food at night helps one to wake up early, while practicing pranayama, the capacity of with-holding breath (kumbhak) increases and we remain enthusiastic all day long. I started reading more and understanding the philosophy behind yoga. On studying various books of yoga, I started understanding Yogamanthansar, a book written by P.P. Nikam Guruji and realised the importance of each word of the book. Everyone witnessed the changes in me. Physically, I started looking healthy, my weight decreased by 20 kgs. Mentally, my anger and irritation decreased, I started accepting my mistakes and stopped arguing pointlessly. I stopped insisting that I was the only one who could be right. I started behaving lovingly with my children. Earlier, they used to consider me more as a doctor and less as a mother. But now, the children are very happy with their mother. The atmosphere at home became loving and caring. My mind calmed down, I stopped feeling depressed. My expectations decreased and I started feeling more detached. I developed the skill of understanding problems. All these skills have emerged because of this place and I want to cherish it. Being a doctor myself, perhaps I could have survived by undergoing constant operations and would have kept regretting it. Shri Ambika Yoga Kutir is like a banyan tree. I was supported in the shade of this banyan tree. The tree is great, but its branches too are strong. I received their love and became blessed and liberated. After getting this rebirth, I want to serve with full dedication, for my entire lifetime. I wish to become at least one of the smallest branches of this tree. I want to preserve and develop the creativity that I have received here. I may empathise with other’s pain, but I also want to be happy for other’s happiness. A seed germinates silently, but when a tree collapses, it creates a big noise. Therefore, I wish that the noise of ego and ill feelings within me may vanish and the seed of love and care may germinate with glory.
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